Friday, September 8, 2017

Started my systems engineering degree…

Doing well. I started my system engineering degree. I had done two classes in the degree and now I am continuing. I almost forgot how much I like to learn. Stayed busy today reviewing from my first session and reading a chapter in my book. Had to buy a printer/scanner for my class. Money well spent. I am looking forward to learning more about system engineering.

Staying busy with school is helping with my divorce. I spend less time siting around thinking about my situation. I spend more time being productive and working toward a goal. I am still sad. I still miss my ex-wife. But my situation is better by working toward a future.

I missed school. I got a cool teacher. She seems really laid back. I should do well in the class. I am already applying myself to be the best student I can be.

Getting back into Tai Chi and Taoism. Doing Tai Chi every day. It really relaxes me. Thinking of reading the Tao of Pooh again. It is a great book about Taoism and Winny the Pooh. A fun and insightful book. I can always tell the difference when I do Tai Chi. My mind relaxes and I feel more at peace. It is great to slow down and appreciate life. I spend so much time rushing from activity to activity that I don’t really get to appreciate anything fully. Tai Chi has already started enriching my life.

It is funny after my religious fanaticism. I have a turn off for religion. But spirituality such as Taoism is still very appealing to me. I feel like Taoism helps me accept the world as it is and work with things how they are.

Thanks for you interest and for reading. Take care.

Friday, September 1, 2017

Lost 10 lbs…

Doing good. I am finally back on track with my weight loss.  I have lost 10 lbs. It feels good. It kind of counter acts the sadness in my life right now.

I am still trying to adapt to my divorce. It is so weird. I thought my ex-wife would always be with me. Maybe I took her for granted. Maybe I messed up. I don’t know. It’s like looking on plane wreckage and figuring out what happened. That is what my divorce feels like. I long for her. I want to be with her. I know I was miserable for years but that does not keep me from reaching out for her. I don’t know what to do without her. I feel so lost. I am trying to do my best. I am trying to move on. I am not sure how to do that. I am not sure how to move on. It seems like sadness is a restraining jacket I cannot get out of. I don’t know what to do next. So I am just trying to live my life one day at a time.

I am back on track with my weight loss and I am doing Tai Chi again. I have started my classes for my masters. Things feel good. I am doing well. I am trying to not be paralyzed by depression. Just living one day at a time; one hour at a time.

Thanks for reading. Take care!

Friday, August 18, 2017

Doing well; getting back on track!

I am doing well. I have been sad off and on again. But I seem to have moved out of the general funk that I was in. My family vacation seemed to snap me out of it.

I am getting back on track with my weight loss. I have gained back 40 lbs. so I have quite a bit to lose. But I have cut donuts, coke, and cookies out of my diet. This has made the difference. I now have positive numbers in MFP so I know I will start losing weight again. I feel positive and like I am moving forward again. I have found a good solution to my dinner problem. I am now eating fewer calories and getting vegetables. Frozen meals have been god send for me.

I was thinking about the time my mom got lost in the mountains of California and almost died. We almost lost her. I only found out about it after it was all over. It is so scary. I am just glad we have her. I love her so much. Its funny people can annoy you and then when you almost lose them you realize how much you really value them.

Well thanks for reading. I hope you’re well. Take care.